Chapter Nine.That evening was pretty quiet. We cooked dinner and sat chatting about all kinds of boring and mundane things while we ate dinner and drank wine. Luke's leg was becoming stiff and sore but after a brief inspection, it appeared to be okay. There was no redness or swelling so I didn't think it was becoming infected, just sore from the day's activities.We went to bed fairly early and it was a nice feeling to have someone cuddled up to me. It reminded me of my husband which made me sad and made me remember the thought I had had in the river.I realised then that as much as I was having a great time with Luke and that he made me feel very passionate and sexy, I was not in love with him. I hoped he realised that this was not going to be a long-term thing. We were never going to be an item. We were fuck buddies and it wouldn't, couldn't be anything more than that. I decided that we would have to talk about this after the weekend was over. Luke was fulfilling some needs I had and doing a damn fine job of it too but there was one need he could never fulfil. It did make me realise though that after all this time, I was ready to try again.I eventually got to sleep and when the morning came around I woke up to an otherwise empty bed. I wondered where Luke had gone and looked around for a sign. His clothes were gone so obviously he had gotten dressed. I got up and wandered around the house looking for Luke. The shower had been run but was empty now. I wandered down to the kitchen where there was a fresh pot of coffee on the bench and it was still warm enough to pour myself a cup. The house was very quiet and it was obvious he wasn't inside. I walked into the lounge room and looked out the window. His car was gone and I felt conflicted. I was kind of relieved strangely but at the same time, I was a bit pissed off. He couldn't have said goodbye?I turned around and looked at the remains of the broken coffee table and chuckled. How could I be mad with memories like that? I realised I would have to get rid of the remains and get myself a new one. Maybe I would keep a piece as a trophy.I drained my coffee, put my cup on the sink and headed back upstairs. I went to my dresser to get some clothes out for the day and saw a note, neatly folded, with my name on it on top of the dresser.?Oh, so there it is.?Well, I guess he at least did kind of say goodbye. escort bayan I picked up the note and sat on the edge of the bed. There was a slant of sunlight coming through the window and it was lovely and warm. I opened the note and read it through.?Dear Sue. I wanted to have this conversation with you face to face. I feel like a coward writing it in a note like this. The reason I have is that I have had to go. My leg is in quite a bit of pain this morning and is now bleeding. I think I may have torn a stitch or two so I have gone to the hospital to get it checked. After I have been to the hospital I will be going back to university.I have thoroughly enjoyed our time together and I hope you have too but something happened yesterday. When I was holding you in the river I was feeling something so much more for you than I thought I would, or perhaps should. Then I saw it in your face. You had the same feelings as I was having. I also saw you shut it down and I felt it last night too. You did not sleep well, and neither did I for that matter.I know that what we have can be no more than what it has been, despite what my heart wants. I'm not ignorant of the intricacies that surround us being together. As I said, I wanted to talk to you about this but I was also scared that we would make love again this morning and I wouldn't be able to say no to you or turn away the way I need to.I am sorry if I have hurt you or in any way upset you but I think you know that this is the right thing to do.This thing we have had together has been one of the greatest things in my life. I will always remember the days we had together and I hope you feel the same way about them as I do.I wish you good luck with everything in the future and I hope you find the right person to share this life with.Luke.?I felt conflicted. I knew he was right and I agreed with everything he said but I still felt upset about it. I knew we couldn't be together, I didn't even want to be in that kind of a relationship with him but it still hurt.I put the note aside and got dressed. I walked out of the room, picked up my car keys and walked out of the house and into the garage. I drove in the direction of town, the window open and the breeze blowing through my hair. The sun was beautiful shining through the window and the further I went the escort bayanlar better I felt. A smile crossed my face that turned into a wicked grin as I drove past the lake, remembering the times I had played there. Sitting naked and masturbating in my car. I hadn't done those things for Luke, they were for me and I had awoken a part of me that I loved and cherished. I was not going to let go of this adventurous side of me just because nothing was going on between Luke and me now. I would always be grateful to him for being a part of that awakening.I went into town and stopped at my favourite cafe, where I got a croissant for breakfast and a fresh coffee. I then drove out of town to the nearest reserve and went for a walk in the sunshine and the bush. As I walked I played through the memories I had of Luke. Some from when he was a teenager but mainly from the last few weeks. Flashing him in the park, having wild crazy sex in the motel, getting naked and masturbating in the car, at the broken coffee table and then down by the river.It was all so good and had me quite worked up as I walked in the heat and began to sweat. It was getting hot and I still had a bit of a way to go before I was back in the car. I hadn't seen a soul while I was out here yet. I thought there would be some people out here but they must have been going to the lake or sleeping in on this Sunday morning. I undid the buttons on my blouse as I walked. Once again, I hadn't bothered with a bra or underwear, so what little breeze there was felt lovely on my naked skin and my nipples hardened immediately. By the time there were only a couple of hundred metres to go I could see the car. There were no other cars in the car park and I still hadn't seen anyone. I glanced around to be sure then slipped my shirt off completely.I just loved the feeling of the air on my skin and the risk of getting caught was driving me wild again. I even slowed my walk to a casual stroll for the rest of the way back to the car. I stood there for a moment with the door open then pushed my pants down over my hips and stepped out of them. I folded them neatly with my shirt and placed them both on the passenger seat of my car. I stood there a little longer, enjoying the air and sun on my skin. I ran my hands over my body and then before I knew what was bayan escort happening I was leaning back against the car, legs slightly spread and my fingers were slipping between my moist lips. There was nothing long-winded or dragged out about it. This was purely about having an orgasm, right here and now. It was quick, efficient and damn effective.I then drove home in the same state I had been in for most of the week, completely naked and turned on.I spent the rest of the day naked and masturbating whenever and wherever I wanted to. It was so freeing and so exciting, especially if I happened to be near a window that could be viewed by someone on the street or a neighbour.I had dinner alone but not in a sad way that night and before I went to bed I sent Luke a message.?Hi, Luke. I just wanted to let you know that I found your note. I am sorry that you felt that you had to tell me in that way but I also understand. I have to admit I have trouble saying no to you too.For what it's worth, I agree with you. It's not a relationship that is sustainable or smart for either of us. You were right, that is what I was thinking about yesterday and I am sorry if I brought the mood down. I wish you all the best for the future Luke and I too, hope you find someone who can give you what you need and is more age-appropriate.Having said all of that, if you find yourself in the neighbourhood in the future, we are both single and you need some MILF time then don't hesitate to contact me. ;-)I do hope I have given you some memories to keep you ?entertained? over time.Sue.?The following week was about as normal as it could be after the turmoil and the way my life had changed. I was, for better or worse, a different person now. I was open to new experiences now and for the first time since Sally was born, I was actively looking for them. I was trying to find information for people involved in exhibitionist lifestyles, not that I was having any luck. It's not like you can just ask the local librarian and even given the stunning amount of porn on the internet, which was feeding my fantasies a lot these days, it was a different story when trying to find like-minded people.I decided to try and be a little more careful about where and when I played my games. It was fun to play but if I exposed myself to someone local who wasn't okay with it it could become a massive problem for me, not to mention Sally.I was getting excited about having Sally home for the weekend and seeing what her camera had managed to capture of the cube experience. I knew it had the potential to be boring but at the same time, I at least knew it was going to be entertaining to see what Luke saw that day.